a clearing in the woods

It's been a tough few months...

I've been doing a lot of brooding. I've been doing a lot of thinking. I've been distant, unattached, depressed, confused, angry, and lost.

I'm still in the middle of it all.

Answers are so god-damned hard to come by at times.

For a couple of weeks, I just put life on hold, and retreated into mindless relief - superficial, yet enjoyable. A holiday retreat called the Internet.

That is until my wife reminded me that I had a family, and responsibilities that came with that. If I didn't pick up my share of the load, it fell to her.

I'm still in the woods. It's dark, I still can't find my direction, and I'm feeling a little cold and tired and lonely. But it's not all gloomy. I can see up through the trees that the sun is shining, and I can hear birds singing. I think there is a clearing coming up where I can rest a while and renew my energies.

But such emptiness cannot be filled by prattle, or verbiage as I have so blithely called it.

I'll be back when I have something further to say.