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Should I add to the overwhelming amount of detrius on the Internet? Yeah, why not...

Monday, October 25, 2004

Queen On Fire At The Bowl

QUEENONLINE.COM

Queen - On Fire - Live at the Bowl

One of the best rock bands in the world, no doubt! 14 years have passed since Freddie Mercury died, but Queen is still a huge name around the world. Today (in Europe at least) they released the new live dvd, from a concert in 1982.

You want to see why Queen are considered to be one of the ultimate live acts in the world - watch this dvd. It will blow you away.

Saturday, October 23, 2004

limbo dancer

Two weeks later, and I'm still in limbo. By choice really. I had already decided to take a holiday, and now I've done that. But I'm no further to figuring out how I'm going to secure an income. I don't want a shitty job. That's not laziness either. I've worked like a dog for next to nothing the last twelve months, and it's just plain stupid. Neither do I want a career, with a high wage and long hours. Money is nothing if you have no time to spend it. I'm not going to waste my life for a decade of retirement. I might die in a car crash the day before I retired...

So what do I do? I'm not sure. My life is in a holding pattern while I think. We won't starve. I could get a job driving taxis again pretty easily I think, but I am loathe to do it. I want to start my own business, as this seems like the best of options, but I don't have a lot of capital. (Face it, I have next to none :))

I'm waiting. Maybe something will pop up in my time of need. The direction of my life is open again. That, at least, is something to celebrate. I think I'll have a beer :)

Sunday, October 10, 2004

new direction

What a weekend. Howard wins the election (argghhhh...) and then I get fired. Shit.
It was definately the worst job I have ever had in my life, but it was also at times, very enjoyable. Not to mention that it paid the bills. Now I am officially unemployed. Shit. Ooops, I said that already didn't I. Murray, I hope you boil in the fat of eternal damnation (or whatever fire and brimstone end of the world scenario it is you Seventh day types believe in). Shit.

Tuesday, October 05, 2004

scattered ambition

I heard this phrase in a film the other night. A good film - it was called "Personal Velocity". Very interesting film-making, a very atypical American film. Certainly not for everyone, but quite good.

But this phrase stuck out to me. It was in relation to one of the caharcters, explaining why their life was where it was. I just thought 'yep, that's me.'

Scattered ambition(s) - I've never been of those types that were highly and narrowly focussed. I've always been a try this and try that kind of guy. I've been good at every job I've ever had. I mean above average good. I have skills - there's no doubt about that. I learn quickly and I'm a good thinker and a hard worker. But I have scattered ambition... Sounds good doesn't it. Sounds like the title of a book, or the name of a rock band :)

I've always been careful not to become too ambitious, as I don't think it a very worthy quality, full of lusting and desire as it is. But maybe I haven't focussed quite enough, as a lack of ambition is also a dangerous attitude.

It begs the question though, doesn't it. To me it sounds like a criticism, as if ambition should not be scattered. I suppose that sounds right. If you are going to be ambitious, it makes more sense to narrowly focus those ambitions. But what about ambition? Is it a good thing, something that we should all accept and teach our children? I think the answer might be rather more complicated that most might think.